Many people begin the New Year with sincere resolutions, determined to grow in areas where they have struggled. Their intentions are genuine, but before long the cares of this world, the pressures of daily life, and the distractions that surround them crowd out their commitment. What began with enthusiasm gradually becomes another forgotten resolution.
Before I met the Lord and
became a Christian, I was trying to put away old habits on my own. I wanted to improve several areas of my life
and become physically healthier, but at that time I was not interested in a spiritual
transformation. In fact, I wanted
nothing to do with godly influence.
As the days passed, I found it
difficult to maintain any lasting resolution.
My efforts to do better were weak and frustrating. I knew changes had to be made—not merely to
preserve my health, but to develop a healthier lifestyle. Yet I kept asking myself, “What is the
answer?”
God and the things of God were
far from the life I wanted to live.
Surrendering to Him never entered my mind. I was my own man and wanted to make my own
decisions without interference from what I once called “the Man upstairs.”
Yet deep down, I knew the
truth. Jesus was the only One who could truly help me attain what I was
searching for, but I was too stubborn to repent of my sins and follow Him. I knew change was necessary, but I resisted
the very One who could bring it. The
question was simple: Would I choose God’s way or my own?
My life was filled with
misery, and above all, I lacked peace. I
knew that peace was only a prayer away.
All I had to do was confess my sins and ask God for forgiveness. Instead, I remained rebellious, running from
Him.
I was filled with
misconceptions about God, and Satan made sure those fallacies remained. I wanted to live life on my own terms,
relying on my own strength and integrity, free from what I thought were
heavenly restrictions. I was under
Satan’s influence, believing his lies and allowing myself to become subject to
his deception. All the while, I was
disobeying God’s commandments and living according to my own desires.
Looking back, I realize how
close I may have been to believing a lie that could have separated me from God
forever, had the Holy Spirit not reached into my heart with His love and gentle
conviction.
Eventually, I came to the end
of myself. No matter how hard I tried or
where I searched, I could not find peace of mind. I was looking in all the wrong places for
what my soul truly needed. Doing things
my way was never the path to freedom.
Everything changed when I
turned my eyes toward heaven. The Prince
of Peace spoke to the storm that was raging within me and said, “Peace, be
still.” At that moment, I found myself
at a crossroads, longing for Jesus to become my Lord and Savior. I had exhausted every effort to do better on
my own. When I honestly examined my
life, I realized I was failing to live as God had created me to live—to glorify
Him and to help lead others to heaven.
What I did not realize during
those difficult days was that the Holy Spirit had been working behind the
scenes all along. As I struggled to
improve my physical health, He was gently speaking to my heart and drawing me
to Christ. God knew that once I
surrendered my heart to Him, true spiritual health would follow.
In love, He continued knocking
on the door of my heart, saying, “You can do better. Come to Me.
I AM that I AM. I will strengthen
you through Jesus Christ.”
1 Peter 5:10 offers this
wonderful promise: “But may the God of all grace, who called us to His
eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect,
establish, strengthen, and settle you.”
That promise became my
reality. God restored me, strengthened me,
and established me in Him.
He will do the same for you if
you truly desire to do better.
Written by,
Papa Boyd